I want...

I want a guy who will:

-take my to the zoo, just because i want to go.

-watch So You Think You Can Dance and listen to everything i have to say.

-have a name or phrase that he uses only for me but not "babe" or "baby" (cuz i hate those).

-sit at the aquarium with me and laugh at all the pretty fishys.

-let me yell at the TV during football games.

-let me bury me head in his shoulder when the movie is scary.

-know what i like and instead of asking me where i want to go, just know and drive right there.

-burn me random CDs for no reason other than he was thinking about me.

-make fun of me in a funny way.

-play with my hair :)

-text me just to talk cuz he knows i love it.

-lay under the stars and have deep conversations that lead to funny moments.

-compliment how much effort i put into my outfit.

-want me to hang out with him and his friends (not ALL the time but every once in awhile).

-be spontaneous.

-let me complain all i want to and just remind me that everything will be just fine.

-be gentleman enough to hold my credit card and phone in his pocket so i don't need a purse.

-let me bake for him.

-cook for me in return.

-motivate me to be a better person.

-not laugh at how much i love facebook, twitter, blogs, and all things technology.

-be playful and goofy and fun.

-let me cry in his arms if i need to.

-take me to disney world cuz he knows it is my favorite place on earth.

-let me talk football cuz i DO know what i'm talking about.

-dance with me even if he hates it.

-take pictures with me.

-argue with me to prove that he cares about something, anything!

-leave me notes that say a little something special.

-give me FLOWERS.

-let me sing LOUDLY in the car.

-go to the gym with me.

-take me to concerts that i want to go to.

....love me. 

What there is to come.

So it's finally here. My favorite time of the year, when the leaves start turning colors. I can start wearing my comfy sweaters, fun fall boots, and scarves!!! Perfect weather for football season in the south. And so very close to Christmas :) Fall in Clemson is one of the prettiest things I can think of.  I love how even the trees are filled with school spirit, with beautiful orange leaves that make you want to start cheering on the Football team while you're walking to class.

This week, is Homecoming.  Coming off a HUGE win at Miami (that was absolutely amazing) there is SO much school spirit, it is almost overwhelming.  Driving past Bowman Field this afternoon, I saw that the frames for the amazing Homecoming Floats have already gone up. One of the most meaningful traditions to me, I always love seeing these massive structures being built. Cannot wait to see the final product. Very happy that the weather was beautiful today. Hoping that the gorgeous weather lasts the entire week. We need to finally have a sunny game.  

Last week was a rough one.  No matter how hard I tried to keep my spirits high, I had a pretty bad week.  However, I am finally going to get a new car this week!!! And it's Homecoming :) It's like Clemson is trying to make sure I have a great week with the Miss Homecoming Pageant on Tuesday, a Halloween Mixer on Wednesday, great band on Thursday, Tigerama on Friday, and the game on Saturday!!!  I am beyond exciting.  I get to teach dance like every week and I am definitely looking forward to it, as always. I am beyond excited about my car :) There are so many great things coming up this week, it's like a gateway to all the possibilities of what great things could be coming up the rest of the year.  

The semester is starting to get long but I have a positive attitude and know I can rock these last few weeks.  I am finally learning that I can't fixate on the bad things that happen, I have to know that "it is what it is" and me worrying is not going to do anything but make me feel worse. So it's time. I have decided to be happy. To make sure I am the best me there can be. Cannot wait to keep you guys updated :)

So I like never post anymore...

As soon as somethine really worth it comes up... I will blog :)

Big love.

Caro.

One Week.

      What a crazy week.  I had no clue that so many feelings could happen in a matter of days. Feeling happy, upset, exhausted, in physical pain, excited, and overall SUPER ahhhhmazing!!!  

The highlight of the week for me has been America's Suitehearts/The Mime Dance.  It is the choreography I am most proud of.  I cannot believe that what I saw to the music in my head translated perfectly to the dancers.  I have been given so much love for this combo that I am encouraged and inspired enough for this entire year and dance season.  It is truly going to be a year for the record books at The Dance Warehouse.  We have so many new people and the old people are back with a good attitude and everyone is ready to work!  

Today is going to be a day for the record books in my life!  Last day of Bootcamp so I get to stretch the dancer's technique!  Today we are doing a traditional ballet warm up and then working on turns, leaps, and tricks.  Amazing!  Cannot wait for this :)  Then...all the dancers will perform all the combos they worked on throughout the week.  I cannot wait to see the Mime dance over and over again!!!!  (I am videoing it today and will upload it to a new blog with a blog devoted entirely to the dance!)  

Then Jordan, Allison, Mama, and I are jumping in the car and headed to Atlanta for the concert of my life!!!!  THE CAB :)  I am beyond excited.  The concert will also have it's own personal blog.  Haha.  We are staying in Atlanta and having a beautiful day in the city before heading back to the real world of SC.  

PS- I bought a new perfume.  I am the type of person that gets one scent and sticks with it until there is a change in my life.  Middle school: one scent. High School: one scent. NOW: a new scent!!!!! SOOOOOOOO excited about Tous in Heaven.  I even love the name.  I also got a really great purse/suitcase.  LOVE is spending money to reward yourself for a great week at work!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS THAT READ THIS!

Big love.

Caro.

Exhaustion.

i am relatively certain that i have not been this tired in at least a year.  holy moley.  super hyper + 5 hours of dance = caro is one tired girl.  i crashed right around 7:30.  dead.  like couldn't move, at all.  cannot believe i am still awake but for some reason, right at 11 every night i start waking up...

very weird.

so, i haven't been on here in a while but we finally have wireless again so now i will be able to post much, much more.  anyways...

day 1 of bootcamp: the juniors KILLED the shrek musical theatre combo!  i mean, it was great.  they had so much fun and were soooo into it :)  the seniors were not quite as pumped, but they will be feeling the combo for the next two days!  the juniors are doing a combo from HSM3, the prom song.  the seniors piece is going to be amazing.  art. a story. love. anger.  it's going to be beautifully chaotic and schizophrenic.  MIMES.  that's all i have to say.  PUMPED.  for real.  

i am very excited because:

1) i just bought a bracelet that says "DAZZLE" and that is just what i plan to do.  so excited to have a reminder :)

2) mime dance tomorrow...hello DUH.

3) THE CAB THURSDAYYYYYY!!!!!!  ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

4) found a beautiful Ed Hardy scarf that i want to make mine.  i don't have any silk scarves that i rotate between.  i want some.  i saw a beautiful blue one with an ocean theme with koy fish.  i am not a big fan of Ed Hardy but when i find pieces that are not so gaudy and look good, i buy them.  it will be mine.  i will probably wear it to see the cab.  just saying.  gotta look good.

there hasn't been anything really great to talk about the last few days, nothing in the personal journal....

i definitely want to write forever and ever but i am losing steam fast and i do not want to fall asleep on you lovely people.

big love.

caro.

Teaching dance!

...totally makes my life better :)  i adore it and i get to do it all next week and then the entire school year!!!  my first team that is all my own........gonna be amazing!!!!

more to come.

big love.

-caro.

All it takes is two words...

    ...to make my day.  Make my week.  Quite possibly make my year, if i wasn't going to see you in concert in less than two weeks.  Today, something amazing happened to me.  Alex DeLeon, @symphnysldr, the lead singer of my favorite band and one of my biggest musical inspirations responded to me on Twitter.  Greatest. Moment. Ever.  

    I never realized how powerful a response from someone i look up to (and view as untouchable) could be.  I want to be that for someone one day.  I kind of needed a kick start to a new lifestyle, one in which a better...no the BEST version of myself is prevalent.  I will now let my creativity guide me.  I will no longer let being afraid be a valid excuse.  Like this stupid, poorly done zebra print manicure.  Who cares that it doesn't look like i expected it to?  SO WHAT???  I did it and now i know not to do it again, especially for The Cab in ATL.  Time to learn from mistakes.  Time to break out and break free.  Time to let laughter reign.  It's time to be me.  No one else.  I feel like i say this to myself all the time.  But i also said a lot of things would never happen to me.  I would never have the dream career that i love.  I would never be on stage in front of millions of people.  I would never lose a bunch of weight.  I would never have a great relationship.  I would never have fun in any situation.  I would never meet The Cab.  Alex DeLeon would never reply to me on Twitter...

   Well, if that one can happen, then why can't all of them?  And ones that i have yet to dream of.  Who knows what i am keeping myself from?????  

    Well, i fully intend to find out.  And soon.  

Saturday, July 18th, is officially the beginning of Super Caro.  Everybody look out.  I am coming for you!

Big Love.

Caro.

Just another day in paradise...

   So, i am super pumped that i get to go home to my own bed tomorrow :)  i have such a great time on vacation, even though i haven't been able to get online very much.  a lot has been happening over the past week...

1) i got a good tan.  *goal numero uno for this vacation has been accomplished.  sweet!!!

2) my obsession over the cab has only grown.  *this band is AMAZING.  i listen to them every single day.  i am listening to them as i type.  they are inspirational ANDDDD regular guys.  i want to meet them...stat.  also, i want to make music.  this week i have decided that i want to start mastering the piano again.  maybe even learn how to do something on that guitar i got for my 12th birthday and then just moved it around my room.  i want to make music, for myself.  i have an amazing outlet for creativity with my choreography but now i feel like i need another one since i am no longer just choreographing what i want...i am more in demand (definitely a good thing!!!) but i need a place to get out the frustrations from the dancing.  haha.  i am such a complicated creature.

3) LIFE GOAL NO. 674= accomplished!!!!  *ever since i saw my first pair of manolo's on sex and the city i knew one day...if i was a very good girl, i would have a pair of italian designer shoes.  and they wouldn't be plain, black shoes that i could wear everyday.  NO.  they would be so fabulous that i would have to CREATE special occasions to wear them, making them THAT much more special.  well, yesterday this goal was nailed down.  i got a pair of $545 shoes.  yep.  (they were heavily discounted but i will not be disclosing all the details on the internets.  i have to keep some dignity about myself. haha.)  they are gold, alligator skin stilletos.  they have a beautiful fleur de lis embellishment on each heel.  i have never loved a pair of shoes more.  i am pretty sure they are actually considered art, not shoes.  i. am. in. love.

4) i met a cute canadian.  *my hope was that the canadians i would meet first would be taylor kitsch and ryan reynolds.  oh well.  i met a canadian named mike who got 1st runner up in a knock out, blow down hip hop battle.  he is quite short and a very talented dancer.  maybe these two traits can balance each other out.  maybe.  i mean he is from canadia...(yes, i call it canadia.  i do this because it makes people laugh.  until people stop laughing at this, i will continue to say it.  simple fact=i am a sucker for a laugh.  it's like a natural high.  i LOVE when people laugh with/at/around/because of/in relation to me.)  

5) i teach dance to some amazing girls.  *today has validated one thing for me.  i have the support of some great girls and their mothers.  being on a team one year and then helping run it the next sounded like a very slippery slope to me but it has turned out amazing.  i love the girls i teach and cannot wait to make them some kick butt dancers.  i love hanging out with them.  i love laughing with them.  i love the memories we are making.  i cherish the times i get to have with them.  i am so lucky that they let me use them as canvases.  

6) i am tired of holding back.  *why should i settle for being anything less than the absolute BEST version of myself that can exist?  creative side will now be the dominant side.  the end.

Big love.

Caro.

It's official...I'm an expert.

So, last night at work (American Eagle) I was informed that I was SO fashionable that they felt I needed to be promoted from Sales Associate to Jean Expert :)  I am very excited about this.  Not only because there are perks involved (which are top secret!!!) but because it is affirmation that I work hard and do a good job.  Working at a place like AE, this may not seem like a big deal.  But to me, it just shows what I am capable of in the future!!!  So excited :)  and we have some amazing jeans coming out very soon.  The company spent thousands and thousands of dollars in product development to give our customers higher quality jeans at the same reasonable price we've always had.  We also have some amazing jackets, dresses, tops, and accessories coming out.  The jewelry that is out now is AMAZING and I am lusting after it!

I am leaving for the beach on Friday.  I cannot wait.  I def haven't been as much this year as I usually have at this point and I can't wait to get out of town for a nice, long time.  *Unfortunately, I'll be missing the OFFICIAL first five days of being a Jean Expert but it's ok.  I have 7 and 1/2 more weeks to go.*  I get to see my amazing family and there will surely be a ton of laughs to be had.  I always joke that I am gathering material for future comedy routines...it maybe true too!  

On a side note, I feel like there is a tree branch in my eye :(  it hurts.  Badly.  

Big Love.

Caro

Kind of dropped the ball on this one...haha.

  Well, since no one that I am aware of reads this blog, it's no big deal that i haven't posted anything since Nov.  HAHA.  I def dropped the ball on this thing.  Luckily, my good friend Jordan said something about getting a blog when we trekked to see the AMAZING Dane Cook on Thurs.  Let me just say that Dane's show was the funniest thing I have ever been to live.  I laughed so hard and even though it was in an arena, i felt like he was talking right to me :)  He is a very talented comedian and people who hate him lose major points in my book.  Trends for me lately: well, i am STILL obsessed with scarves even though it is WAYYYYYYY too hot to be wearing them.  I really can't stop wearing them.  And when I have a heat stroke it will be my own fault.  Listening to The Cab is another big trend here lately.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE them.  Their music is happy and singable and fun and perfect for me and my life.  SUPER excited that I am finally going to see them live in July!!!  The Masquerade in ATL is about to meet Caro and they better watch out.  

I am going to use this as kind of a diary.  I am not going to post every detail of my life but I would like to be able to look back at this and remember what was going on at the time.  That being said, I need to address 2 things.

1) Michael Jackson died.  I am slightly distraught.  I love his music so much.  He is one of the first people I remember watching and thinking, "Wow, he can sing and dance but he is PERFORMING."  So inspirational.  I guess I always took for granted that one day my children would ask me about what crazy thing he was doing at the time.  I do know that I will put on the Thriller record and dance around the living room acting goofy just like me and my mom did so many times.  I don't really have any special memories with Michael that didn't involve singing too loudly or dancing crazy but I do know that I will go learn the entire Thriller dance very soon.

2)I have issues with rude people.  One of my friends in particular is being more and more rude lately and it really bothers me.  She is ditching lunch invites and making rude comments about things that I really love and just being inconsiderate in general.  This is really hard for me to stomach because, in all honesty, I really don't like hanging out with her anymore.  I have been her friend as long as I can remember and invite her when we do group things because that is what we have always done.  I am to the point where I don't really even consider her a friend anymore and that truly bothers me.  One thing I learned from MJ's death is that life is precious and there is no point in holding grudges or being petty.  It's about living life to the fullest.  So, I don't know if I will just totally over look what she has done to me but I do know that I am not going to confront her in the manner that I initially wanted to.  I don't want to stoop to her level.  I am not a rude person and I don't plan on being a redneck (in public) either.

So, now that I've done that...

-I will be at the beach July 3-12.  I am SOOOOO excited.  Living the good life.  I want to come back and look like a Native American Indian!!!  Yay.

-I get to choreograph a duet today.  I have wanted to do this piece for so long and I am thrilled that it is finally happening.  More on this later.  

I promise you, if there is anyone reading this, that I will have more posts very soon.  This is almost therapeutic and I really enjoy putting my thoughts down.

Big Love.

Caro